Today is my Jake's 3 week birthday!! Was it really only 3 weeks ago that we had him? It seems like 3 years ago! And now, I can't believe that tomorrow is his funeral. I don't think I am ready to bury my baby. It feels like I am just home temporarily from the hospital and I will be going back soon and he will be there waiting for me.
I think all of the funeral arraingements are taken care of. Heidi Anderson helped me a lot this morning helping me realize that this isn't something that is going to go away and she taught me a new word, and told me I have permission to use it! The word of the day is Crappy!! I love it! This is how I want to respond when someone asks how things are going-Crappy! or when I realized I belong to a Crappy club. Don't get me wrong, the people in this club are amazing, but it isn't one that any of us want to belong to because of the reason you are there! A crappy situation! So, you might hear me using that more often-thanks, Heidi! :)
I had a lot of other things on my mind that I wanted to blog, but I am having short term memory loss because I can't remember something I was just doing or saying, so if I think of them, I will add them. For now, I have to try and sleep so I don't look so CRAPPY tomorrow for the funeral! :)
One quick shout out to my sister Julie-THANKS!! She brought a mini mall to my house so I could try on outfit upon outfit so that I will look cute tomorrow!! I think we finally found one, so hopefully I look decent. Give all the credit to her!! Thanks, Ju!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Happy Birthday, Jakey!
Posted by Dennison Family at 10:40 PM
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What a wonderful sister, you deserve to be pampered! I am sure you will look beautiful.
I think Crappy is an excellent word. I am truly sorry that you had to go through this crappy day!
It really is CRAPPY! I'm so sorry. And it's perfectly ok to let people know how things truly are going... crappy! I don't fully know what you're feeling, but I'm here for you! And I'm so glad Julie helped you find an outfit to wear today.
you will look beautiful no matter what you wear! and it's perfectly ok to say crappy!
I am thinking of you and praying for you right now Liz. Its one fifteen. I hope everything goes the way you and Tyler want it to today. I am sorry I couldn't make it. I had to just send Danj to give you our love. We are thinking of you along with many others. Tiff
My heart goes out to you and your family, may you feel the comfort of our Savior at this time. You are in our prayers.
HEART HUGS-The Pettit's (Teagan HLHS 3/10/08)
Liz
I love the liberating post! and yes you looked GREAT!!! the funeral was wonderful.
Love-
HEIDI
You did marvelous today, very composed. Your outfit was darling and so slimming. Nobody would have ever guessed you just had a baby!
Jake's funeral was so sweet, it brought back so many emotions. So many little details made it so precious and personal. All 4 of your kids are darling!
I'm glad you like my word. You'll have a lot of crappy days ahead and we are here for you AND your husband. It's something we have to learn to live with, I don't think it ever will leave. You are special to have been entrusted with such a special baby. I've been thinking of you constantly and am here when you need to scream at someone!
You don't know me but I hope you don't mind my reading you blog about your sweet baby. I Have a son who also has HLHS and I am so impressed by the strenghth that you have. I know Heavenly Father is watching over you and your family, and he is very aware of your needs. Please know that you are in our prayers.
Sincerely,
Kierra Pugmire
please feel free to check out our sons carepage @ www.carepages.com
carepage name BabyBryson
I found your blog from Bela's blog, and just wanted to say how sorry I am. My name is Emily, and my husband and I are the proud parents to two angel babies, Lilly(holoprosencepahly) and Ryker (HLHS). Ryker lived seven weeks at the hospital, and passed away unexpectedly for a reason we will not know on this earth. We knew with everything inside of us that it was Ryker's time, and there was so much peace during everything that was happening. There are times where I start to think, "should we have tried more?" During those times, I remember the overwhelming peace we felt that I am sure our daughter was there, letting us know Ryker's time had come. Hang in there, so many are praying for you. I know the harder days will come, and if you ever need a place to vent, there is a heart-angel group called Intermountain Healing Heart Angels. It is an amazing support to me and so many others. I know the funeral will be beautiful. Just bask in the love and peace.
Heart hugs,
Emily
P.S. Thank heavens for eternal families!
I am so happy that we found a perfect outfit for you to wear. I will have to bring the mall to you again. It was fun to hang out and fun to shop!!! You looked beautiful and yes your new word is perfect!!!
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